I don't want to be the girl.

I could just hear you. I came so close to listening to your words, so close but not quite. I decided against myself, against my former self that is. The one who would let you in, forgetting all I've learned over the years. But no. Times have changed. My sun is so much brighter now, and care free. I feel that I've finally discovered how to live for me, to find joy and love in the small moments, finding emotions to be my friend and not my enemy. I am no longer chained to you, but I am still shaken by your presence, Oh how i loved you. I did. I've accepted it, I no longer deny the truth; I Was Undyingly Yours. 

But here is my new season. I know things will be okay.