Spewing Words

Hi!

so last night i had one of my "revalations" haha not really more like, an evaulation of things leading to getting out of my "funk" states. So basically to say, it's a time where i realize how grateful i am for all i have. How i have the most Uh-Mazing friends, who have my back and care about me. And ontop of that i got inspiration for some new music that i've been...assigned to ha
so tell moi what you think yes?

Silence, you i treasure. Come and visit with me for a while.
Memories, how you scatter and patter on my wooden floors
Dance for me dance. Show me things i once loved
Make me doubt the road i took.
Enigma (or doubt?) fall on me, make my thoughts stutter.
O how you try your best to retrace my footsteps
Mirror, take a good look at me and compare
your sights to a re-invented masterpiece
Im sure Im right where Im meant to be
Go back to where you belong, where i left you
In battlefields of dubiety
You are banned, o i commaned thee out


....trying something new...so ya!


♥ Adieu

Little Diddy

So the sky

is kinda high

and people sigh

when rainbows divide

into beautiful butterflys

as the arrows strike from his eyes,

when i know he's speaking in lies

Underline

I've been saying these cruel words
My head is jsut confused, wondering
If your goal is to hurt me or not
Swear to me, i know you have
Still, it doesnt make this easier
You make me happy, yet
On the otherside, its painful to trust you
Under my words
Tell how i honestly feel
Oh, how i wish things never happend
Oh, how i wish things would happen


grr...kinda sucky like the others...o well

Cog

that one night
feels like years away
that one night
i was happy
that one night
i could pretend
that one night
we trespassed the line
that one night
i miss, i wish it was real
that one night
i pray for it every night
that one night
has made me remember
that one night
i have yet to figure out, if i should regret
that one night
im so frightened of what you will say about it
that one night
was it wrong
that one night
will you hate it ever happened
that one night
will it be a beginning to something beautiful
that one night
will it be an ending to a beautiful life

that one night

i miss

that one night

do i regret

that one night

was my last

I Begg of thee

Is this even real?
Dont tell me youve faked it all along
Out of my mind, i am going out of my mind
No, please dont regret a thing, you'd be
Teasing me, this has been
Unbelievble, although im merely pretending
Not being able to face reality
Dumbing down the pain is all i try to do
Easily you walk away, after we
Reminiss of the times we miss
Surely you must be lying to me
Taking all that you can out of me, so
Away with you if all your doing is playing games
No more. i will not be able to stand it much longer
Dont play this game with me anymore
Please

Above all else, Guard your heart

I'm through with saying things are ok
I cant bear listening to you smile
You miss me, and you feel bad
But honestly do you?
Do you know what you did to me?
Do you actually understand?
Because i get the notion that you don't
That you never understood
That your just screwing me over

I will open myself
So foolish i am
my blind trust in you will lead to my demise
time and time again
how can i trust you?
Why do i persist on putting my faith in you
I should hate you
But oh, On the contrary my love
I yearn to here you say that things are different
That you will be trustworthy
That we can mend this relationship
But really can we?
Will you leave me again?
Let me fall in the dust?
And cry out all the faith i have in you?

You see i have this fixation
With the hope that one day we can be,
Like the days we never had to worry
When I never had to be scared of you
Of yours lies
Of your cruel words
Of your empty promises
Of your misleading touch
I let myself loose to you
I put down my barriers
Opened my self to those deceiving words

How stupid had i been
I let myself down
I let myself feel like a whore
I turned myself into the lowest freak

For you i let myself,
all i stood for,
all i believed in,
be taken over
For you
All for you
I swore i would never let myself get like that again
Not let myself believe lies

But what am i doing
I'm telling you okay
And that i miss you too,
Making myself vulnerable
so that you can brake me

SO my Darling,
Ode to you i say...
Have Fun Fucking Me Up