9.2.09

Becasue this isn't mine anymore.

and for the first time, wanting this friendship means more to me than the idea of flirtation. My head and my heart concur, the most rare of all things, that to understand him is better than to know him. Jeopardizing this could be more costly than a regret and a bruised heart. I don't want anything more from you than your friendship


I don't want to do Aphrodite's bidding's anymore, I'm waiting for fate.


Understand this everlasting trouble

I'm Sorry.

8.2.09

In the midst of a headache.

Will you please just sing to me,
It's all I'll ever need.
I think it
can fix
me.

Help
me.Can't
You fix me?
I can feel your
embrace, calming,
I collect myself, just
In time. I will manage
In time, I'll become my
Creators misfortunet deed


6.2.09

Lilith I believe you...

hey man
evening on the ground
and there is no one else around
so you will
blame me
blame me for the rocks and baby bones

and broken lock on our
garden
garen wall of eden
full of spiderbites and all your lovers
we were
we were born to fuck each other
one way or another
but i'll only lie
down by the waterside at night
hey man
tiny baby tears
i will collect a million years
and you can
blame me
blame me, i will wear it
in the empty hollow part of my garden
garden wall of eden in the clamour
as they raise the curtain
you will
you will never make me
learn to lay beneath the mountain
'cause i'll only lie
down by the waterside at night

[iron and wine]

5.2.09

Favourite Versus

Proverb 4:23
[Above all else: Guard your heart]

Psalms 46:5
[God is in the midst of her, she shall not be moved, God shall help her, jsut at the break of day]

Matthew 25:35
[For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me]

Hosea 2:19
[I will accept you as my wife forever, and instead of a bride price I will give you justice, fairness, love, kindness, and faithfulness. Then you will truly know who I am.]

4.2.09

This isn't it, no it's them.

God. Is. Here.

I think I found my other soul mate*.

I'm going crazy with all of this mental emotion, but it feels so good, So amazing, like falling in love without the scare of the ground. I'm nearly bursting.

Am i falling for this guy, or am I right, he is my soul mate, yet again,
Am i falling for this guy? No matter the answer, he is meant to be here at this moment in my life.
I'm not entirely sure why, but I'm beginning to find out.
Here's a curious thought, Maybe it's not my life he's in, just someone I'm close to.
I hope for both.

I have someones energy, but i think i gave them mine too.

Someone is here, in me.



*
Soul-mate; in ones life there is a collection of these. They consist of variety, yet the connection and power that are involved, is the same. There is the cliche use of the word, meaning "the love of ones life", but there is so much more to it. Yes there is that cliche soul-mate, but there are other categories, like sister, father, friend, religion. All in all a soul-mate is someone that is without a doubt meant to be in your life, someone who gets you, and will truly listen and observe without judgment. It is not enough to say that these people can be considered friends, because it is so much more. It's someone you know it will be okay when you tell them anything; someone who listens, and listens well with not only ears and heart but every part of their being, and in return can calm you with the most beautiful advise; someone who knows when to give you that compliment, and knows how to connect with you on a certain level. A Soul-mate is the key that unlocks specific areas of your life, allowing you to be free in it, and connect the way we were made.

=)

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) Lillian (

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)Edith(
/4-ever\
/ ...... \
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To fold over. A happy ending.

Today, was just amazing. It's as simple as that. I felt the presence, the connection. I'm so in love with my friends, sometimes they can surprise you, Pop up with this compassion that's often hidden through surface conversation. This rarity blew me away. And whoever I have to thank, weather it be the universe or most probable; God, I thank you. I owe you my gratefulness.

Thank you for making my day complete, I suppose I underestimated our friendship, and I apologize, because tonight, you capped it off. I felt God through you, surprising and ironic I know. But never the less, thank you. All My Love and Eternal Compassion

-a resurrected friend