28.3.07

From a paper note

i was having a crappy-ish day today, i completely lost all of my confidence in myself and what i believe, i was very confused, and maybe i will be again later, but for now i feel really great!! =) school very much rocked my sox just before i left, its amazing what one little note can do for you, it brought me up again, feeling less stressed and sorta free again, with a little help of the lovely weather!!!! its SO BEAUTIFUL OUT!!!!! YAY LIFE YAY and so ya,i was going to blog a poem i had written earlier when i was confused and trying to figure out how i felt about people again, but thinking about it now, its kinda emo and just like all the others, so my plans for that changed, so instead i will leave you With a song that I'm currently listening to.....its quite a lovely one...enjoy! (and look it up)

somewhere far away from here
i saw stars, stars that i could reach
it was a midnight silent twilight
that fell down... beyond the ocean beach

i assemble all the sand that cover wedding beaches
to build a castle so your mom would have a place to stay
behind the waterslide and down the hill where heaven
reaches land and time is left to float away

so rest assured i have the key to every opening
to every wishing well that's deep enough to dream
i want to show you just how fascinating kissing is
when earth collides with all the space between

i’m reaching farther than i ever have before
leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore
i may be some sort of crazy
we may be some sort of crazy
but i swear on everything i have and more

so never look behind you spooky people bring you down
the world is ending... there's a party by the bay
I'll wear my suit and tie we're eye to eye and toasting to
the way you put that smile upon my face

fill up the air balloon and ride with me
when hell is jealous of the rain
make love like time and space is ending while befriending
fates alluring way of putting us to shame

i’m reaching farther than i ever have before
leaving all who broke your heart upon the shore
i may be some sort of crazy
we may be some sort of crazy
but i swear on everything i have and more...

that you make the sound of pulling heaven down
you brought the rain's romantic pour
you make the sound... you make the sound
of pulling heaven down



----Sound of Pulling Heaven Down , Blue October-----

mis lovely amigos, have an steller day!

20.3.07

Poem...Carpe Diem my loves

If someone says "hi"
Aren't you suppose to say "hi" back?
If someone needs help
Aren't you suppose to give it to them?
If someone falls
Aren't you suppose to help them up?
If somones crying
Should you go comfort them?
If someone tells you they miss you
Shouldn't you say it back?
If you miss someone
Won't you call them?
If you call someone
Will they talk back to you?
If you care about someone
Aren't you supposed to be there for them?
If you want to hold them
Can't you hug them?
If you love someone
Shouldn't you tell them?
If you know those words would help them, but really hurt them
Aren't you supposed to protect them?
But if your heart is breaking
Are you suppose to let it shatter?
If you wait too long
Will things be over?
If you make one mistake
If you don't say that one word
If you don't call them
If you don't hug them
If you dont tell them
Will you lose it all?

19.3.07

Poem...Return

In the beginning,
Beauty
At the start,
Your lovely ways stole my heart
Then a disaster
You turned away
I missed you
I yearned for you
When you held another existence
I screamed
I was in pain thinking of you
Then the
Cold.
Numb.
Feeling.
And I merely forgot you
Until you caught my glance again
We reconnect
I keep my heart steady
Desperate to avoid conflict
But you tell me...
those words i had been
Yearning to here
It once would have stopped
A falling tear
But now it confuses me
But my love, i do miss you
Though we must be careful
Not to fall apart
But my love, you hold my heart
And its yours to stay

Poem...Ado

Two beautiful souls
I cast my eyes upon you both
Bot competing for my attention
I glance between them
Afraid to suddenly move
I must be careful not to deceive
Two beautiful souls
Why spy me?
Don't try to touch
We can't, i forbid it
I need strength
I need you to walk away

15.3.07

....repress these words...

i miss you
i cant have you
all of these things getting in my way
i have to stay in the distance, while
i miss you
i cant touch you
it would bring confusion
it would bring happiness along with pain
i miss you
i cant fix things
i never realized how much i hurt you
i never realized what my words could do
i miss you
i cant tell you
only in my dreams may i be with you
becasue for now you are forbidden to hold, and to tell
i miss you